I'm pretty sure I'm out this cycle. I tested Sunday, at 10 DPO, with a BFN. The last couple of days I've been having period cramps and my face has broken out. I'm just waiting on the Red Lady to show up. I'm surprised by how ok I am by this. I'm disappointed, sure. We knew that I had, not one but two, mature eggs. We knew my window of ovulation, and we took major advantage of that knowledge. Yet, it still didn't work. I keep telling myself that it must not be the right time.
I have about convinced myself it is time for a TTC break. The Mr. has been convinced of this for awhile. Chances are I'll have the whole, or a large majority, of the summer off. I want to enjoy it and I know that TWWs will be a lot harder without anything to distract me. Here lately, I've noticed my view on getting pregnant has changed. We still want kids, but we realize that, regardless of fulfilling that desire or not, we want to be happy. Frankly, I'm very happy with my husband and fur babies. I still think about TTC and pregnancy, but I'm not obsessing over it anymore. I truly believe my life can feel complete without a child.
However, I do want to say that I have taken a break from pregnancy and parenting blogs. I'm hopeful I'll be able to pick back up on them soon, but right now I just need a break.
Don't count yourself out yet...It's not over til it's over :)
ReplyDeleteThat being said, I know how gruesome this process can be. You and I have been trying for about the same amount of time, so believe me, I totally get it. Hugs to you and my fingers are still crossed for this cycle :)
Taking a break is a great thing. I too have changed how I feel about getting pregnant. There isn't that rush anymore. It will happen when it happens. Still keeping everything crossed.
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