Sunday, July 27, 2014

TWW???

When I was on fertility treatments I always triggered when my follies were mature. And I always had some very noticeable ovulation pain. Nothing unbearable, but I knew the exact moment the egg(s) popped. After I stopped treatments I felt that same pain. The first time I thought it was in my head, until I had a period exactly two weeks later. The next time I felt that same pain I made sure me and the Mr. got down to business (wink, wink). Two weeks later I got my first and only positive pregnancy test.

Every. Single. Time. I have felt the pain on my left side. (I'm beginning to think my right ovary is defective). Thursday night I was lying in bed when I started having some pretty significant cramping, but it was only on my LEFT side. Now I remember that I felt ovulation pains, but I haven't felt those in over two years, so I do not remember exactly what they felt like. I'm not 100% certain ovulation was the cause of the cramps that I felt Thursday night. BUT we got in some bedroom exercise Thursday and Friday, just in case. As of right now I'm in a (kind of) TWW. At the end of two weeks I'll find out for sure if I ovulated, either by a positive pregnancy test or a period. If I'm pregnant I'll be ecstatic. If AF shows up, I'll be happy too because at least I'll know I ovulated. And maybe that will keep me motivated to keep up all my hard work where my new diet is concerned.

Low Amylose: Week 3

Number of pounds lost this week: 2
Total number of pounds lost: 8.5

I'm really surprised I lost anything this past week. We did so much traveling that my diet kind of took a back burner...for FOUR days. I was just hoping I hadn't gained so to have a 2 pound loss was a pleasant surprise. I plan to get back on track and finish out this first month with a bang.

Monday, July 21, 2014

Low Amylose: Week 2

Number of pounds lost this week: 3.5
Number of weeks on diet: 2
Total pounds lost: 6.5

Two weeks in and I've already lost over 6 pounds. I'm still not exercising but my MIL has an old treadmill she's offered to give me, so I plan on using that soon. Our weekends are so busy that I usually end up having a cheat or two. I know busyness is not an excuse but when your hungry and aren't home to cook, and the only option the store concession offers is hot dogs and pizza, eating healthy takes a back burner. I'm still proud of myself for how well I am doing. My only real complaint is how bored I'm getting with my veggies. I looked up some recipes online and I plan on trying to expand my creativity with how I get my three servings a day.

On another note, the worst period ever is starting to dry up. I don't think I've ever been so excited to see a period say goodbye. I'm on day 8 and the flow has slowed down considerably, I'm very hopeful in the next day or two it will disappear completely.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Low Amylose: Week 1

I'm a little late since I've been on this new diet for a week and a half, but I thought I'd share a little about my first week's experience in case anyone was interested.

Pounds lost this week: 3
Number of weeks on diet: 1
Total pounds lost: 3

Three pounds in a week is amazing results for me. I don't think I've ever lost that much in week. And that was without ANY exercise (hangs head in shame).

The first couple of days were super hard. I felt like I was STARVING! I'm talking severe hunger pains, but I was constantly eating. I don't think I realize how much of my diet consisted of carbs. Now it is not nearly as bad. I actually have to remind myself to eat often. As long as I allow myself a little (healthy) snack every couple of hours, the hunger pains stay at bay. I do eat when I'm hungry.

I thought this diet would be a lot harder than it is. I thought I would be craving all kinds of sweets and carbs, and I did the first couple of days. Now though I don't really even want those things. If I do get a craving I try to find some kind of sugar-free, low-carb alternative. I have allowed myself a cheat or two. For example, over the weekend we went to a Mexican restaurant and I had a taco salad with the shell. But it seems the less I eat junk, the less I crave junk. My biggest challenge right now is getting my 3 servings of veggies a day. There are very few veggies I like and I am quickly becoming bored with them. I am going to have to become more creative in my veggie creations.

I also feel better. I can tell a big difference in my energy and alertness. I also love how I don't feel guilty every time I pick up a fork.

In other news the P.ro.ver.a worked. I woke up to a very heavy flow Sunday morning. Lovely. I honestly think this is one of the heaviest periods I have ever had. My periods are usually 4-5 days long, and are only heavy about the first and second day and then get super light by the fourth. Not this time. I'm four days in and still soaking pads every couple of hours. In four days I have went through two small packs of pads. I'm trying not to get to concerned just yet, but since this is out of the norm it is hard not to worry. My mom has been known to bleed for 14 days before and I hope I am not following in her footsteps.


Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Going Low Amylose

Good afternoon!

So I am super excited to share this new diet I found!

If you're like me, the word "diet" makes you cringe. And I'm convinced this diet I am currently on came straight from Dante's Inferno. BUT it is supposed to work miracles for women with PCOS. I have done a lot of research on the low amylose diet and there seems to be a lot of success stories. Women losing weight. Women regulating their cycles. Women ovulating on their on. Women conceiving naturally. From what I read this diet, especially when paired with Met., can work wonders for insulin resistance and balancing hormones. But it is not a fun, or easy, diet.

1. No simple sugars. (Duh!) So I'm saying goodbye to my favorite foods; ice cream, candy, and pie.
2. No wheat, rye, oats, etc. Goodbye to my second favorite foods; pasta and bread.
3. No corn (my favorite veggie) and no bananas (my favorite fruiet)
4. Eat at least 3 fruits and 3 veggies a day. The fruits have been easy, the veggies...not so much.
5. Eat 6 ounces of protein a day
6. Avoid underground veggies. Bye, bye my sweet potatoes and loaded baked potatoes. (Garlic and onions are an exception.)

There are some other rules, but you can google,or YouTube if you want more details. I've heard you should see a difference in 3-6 months. I figure I can give up my favorite foods for a few months if it means it'll increase my chances of giving Squishy a little brother or sister...or both :). I'll even give them up it means regular cycles, natural ovulation, or significant weight loss.

In other news I am on day 4 of Provera. It's been over 90 days since my last cycle so I knew it was time to force a bleed. It just doesn't seem right how so many of my friends gripe about their periods, but I have to pay for mine. My prescription is less than $4.00 but it's the principal. Paying for AF, one of the many joys of PCOS. 

Monday, June 30, 2014

A Hard Week

Five new pregnancy announcements. Three in the past week. They have gotten easier to hear, but it's still hard. I broke down and cried the other night, after hearing two of my friends' are pregnant in a less than 24 hour time period. I know I'm a horribly, selfish person. I have one beautiful, healthy, perfect little boy. I should be content. But I want more.

If I could snap my fingers and make myself pregnant, I'm not completely sure I would right now. So much is going on (moving, family issues, health issues) I'm trying not to stress, but I don't feel like I'm succeeding. Besides having another baby means having another C-section. Of course the baby would be worth the operation, I'm just concerned about recovering with a toddler. A toddler who wouldn't understand why I couldn't hold him and play with him like I usually do.

We've already had people asking us when we are going to have another. People assume that having a baby cures infertility. Next month marks one year of us not trying, not preventing. We most definetly want more kids. But like I told the Mr. during my cry, it hurts that so many people get to decide when they have their kids, and can have them (however many they want) whenever they want. I'm not consumed with baby fever; but it's there, niggling in the back of my mind. I'm truly happy for my friends, but I know seeing and holding their new babes isn't going to be easy.

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Have You Ever Tried Packing With A Toddler?

For those of you who have never experienced the joys that accompany attempting to pack with a toddler underfoot, allow me to enlighten you on what you are missing out on.

Put object in packing box.
Toddler takes object out of packing box.
Put object back in packing box.
Toddler takes object back out of packing box.
Allow toddler to play with (be distracted by) first object while you put other objects in packing box.
Toddler loses interest in first object, throws it on the floor, then proceeds to get second object out of packing box.
Throw item (trash) in trash can.
Toddler gets item out of trash can.
Throw item back in trash can.
Toddler gets item back out of trash can.
Decide the floor isn't such a bad place for that empty take out box.
Go back to putting items in packing box.
See that toddler is now throwing items in trash can.
Investigate. See that toddler has decided to throw his expensive toys and books away.
Dig items out of trash can.
Repeatedly check trash can to make sure no other rogue items have made it in there.
Go to the bathroom. Sit on toilet and debate the wisdom of attempting to pack/move with a 14-month-old. Come to the conclusion that you are, in fact, crazy.
Return from bathroom to see toddler sitting in the packing box, all the objects that were currently in the packing box are now strewn about the floor.
Decide to do the packing during toddler's nap time.
Beg, bargain, plead cuddle with toddler in an attempt to get him to rest his oh-so-tired eyes.
Be jumped on, screamed at, slapped, kicked, (insert abuse here).
Finally, FINALLY, get toddler to sleep.
Decide to take a nap yourself.
After all, you are exhausted from all that packing.