Saturday, December 6, 2014

One Beautiful Heartbeat

My ultrasound Monday showed one healthy heartbeat of 160. Baby's measurements matched my charts exactly and the doctor confirmed my predicted due date of July 5. One thing that I found irritating was how every person I talked to prior to seeing my doctor insisted on using my last period to indicate how far along I am. I have PCOS, I didn't ovulate until CD TWENTY-SEVEN, my last period means squat where my ovulation in concerned. Everyone brushes me off like I didn't have the sense to know what I was talking about. So I go into my ultrasound and my dr expresses concerne because I'm measuring over a week behind. Once I told her the dates in my chart were wrong and told her I should only be 9 weeks instead of 10, baby measured perfectly. I'm thankful I charted and know exactly when I ovulated, or else I would be freaking out.

My dr also mentioned that I had the option to try for a natural delivery. I didn't think she supported VBACs, but she said we could try if that was what I wanted. I don't really know how I feel about that. We came so close to losing Squishy, there is a lot of comfort in scheduling a repeat c-section. However, I really feel like I missed out on the whole birthing experience with Squishy, and that was something I mourned extensively. Then there is always the chance I could endure another long labor, only to end up with another emergency section anyway. Thankfully, I have some time to make my decision.

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

6W3D

I'm a little over 6 weeks today. I've been dealing with nausea, exhaustion, insomnia, food aversions, sore boobs, and wacky pregnancy dreams that have me contemplating getting a pschycratic evaluation. The usual early pregnancy symptoms.

I did have a scare last week, some pretty intense cramping on my left side. I called my doctor and they sent me to the radiology department for an ultrasound. All the tech saw was a sac and yolk, she said she thought she might have seen a fetal pole but she wasn't sure. I was really early (5w4d). My uterus is tilted. And there was some obvious scar tissue from my c-section. All of these things made it difficult for her to get a good view of what was going on in my uterus. We did rule out an ectopic pregnancy and the sac was measuring 5w6d, so that made me feel better.

I feel so different this pregnancy. With Squishy I was a nervous wreck. With this one I kind of have this "what will be will be" mentality. I'm trying to enjoy it, and I am. I don't want to spend the whole 9 months fixating on what might/could go wrong. I also figure it has something to do with the toddler running around here taking up all my time and attention. Last time I was pregnant I was able to take naps whenever I wanted, and lay on the couch and fixate on all the possible outcomes. Now I'm too busy trying to locate Finding Nemo so he can watch "Fish" and looking for "Pass" (his pacifier) during nap time. Nausea and queasiness? Those diahrra diapers still have to be changed so I've just got to suck it up and deal with it. Toddlers don't understand food aversions. They still want their lunch of ketchup with a side of chicken nuggets, even if the smell of the nuggets cooking makes mommy gag. It's great.

I do love this baby and I do want him/her desperately. Hopefully in another 7 and a half months I'll be getting some newborn cuddles.

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

2nd Beta

I went in last Monday, Oct 27, for my first beta. I received a call Tuesday telling me my levels were 383, the number was good and that I did not need to come in for a repeat. I received a call Wednesday    telling me that Dr. Lady Parts wanted me to come in next Monday to make sure my numbers were doubling.

I went in yesterday, November 3, for my repeat beta. I was praying for something over 3,000. I just received a phone call telling me my numbers came back at 6,876. I had a feeling they were going to be high. Now I'm even more anxious for my first ultrasound in December.

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Beta Number

My beta came back at 383. The nurse said I will not need to come in for a repeat. They estimate I am about 4 weeks along.

My first ultrasound is scheduled for December 1st. If you don't hear from me it's because I've been committed because I have went insane from having to wait so long to see a heartbeat.

Saturday, October 25, 2014

12 DPO...BFP!!!

I am in shock! I honestly thought this cycle was a bust and was anxious for AF to arrive so I could start anew. I tested on a whim, with my last pregnancy test; upon seeing a BFP I immediately went and bought the CB digital and weeks estimator. According to the test I am 1-2 weeks past ovulation. 

My first beta is Monday and my first ultrasound is scheduled for November 14. I am super early, not even four weeks; and I'm guessing I'll be due in early July. 

The Mr. and I are stunned, but also over the moon thrilled and excited. We are so very thankful for the precious life growing inside me. 

Sunday, October 19, 2014

7 DPO...again

After entering my temps this morning, FF readjusted my ovulation date. It originally said I ovulated on CD 16, now it is saying I ovulated on CD 27. Instead of being 18 DPO ovulation and expecting AF to arrive any minute, I am now 7 DPO and only halfway through my TWW.

This cycle has been a rollar coaster and I'm just ready for it to be over. I'm now wondering if I ovulated at all. I am very frustrated and discouraged. I just want my body to work right.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

BFN

I took HPTs at 11 DPO and 15 DPO (because I have no self control), both of them were negative. I haven't felt confident about this cycle since the beginning; I wasn't surprised to see the negatives, but it was still disappointing. I always tell myself that I'm prepared for a negative and won't let it get to me, but it always does. I think some of it has to do with when I found out I was pregnant with Squishy. I fully expected a BFN then too.

Since I know this cycle was a bust I'm ready for AF to arrive so we can start over. (Wow, is this how normal couples feel?) I'm on CD 31 and my boobs have been hurting the past few days, hopefully she'll arrive soon.

I have an appointment with Dr. Ladyparts in December. I'm thinking about asking her to do some blood work to see if I'm ovulating. According to my BBT chart I am, but I'm not sure I 100% trust what it's telling me. I'm also getting nervous about how long it is taking us. It took us 18 months to conceive Squishy. I didn't think I would get pregnant immediately with baby 2, but I was hopeful it wouldn't take us as long. Right now we are at 17 months TTC, so going past the 18 month mark is looking like a very real possibility.